March 25th 2023

Progress Report

 Last week I talked about the ability to use big dreams to propel us into action, and I suppose I haven't totally moved on from this idea yet. Some days it's hard to continually lean into this place of longing, but the more I think about it the more I hope I never totally get there. (Or that if I do something new crops up on the horizon.) I never want to fully arrive. I never want to be finished. That's part of what I love about farming, and especially farming with horses. Every day is different, every season, and every year things are changing and I'm constantly tinkering and being pushed to adapt. Being a teamster (if you're good) you'll develop a feel, and a sense that you can spend your whole life refining. I think it's the same in other facets of our lives. I have plenty of challenges and insecurities that I am trying to work through and chip away at, but if you ever hear me say that I am "done" please stage an intervention. I am most fulfilled (I will not say happiest, with good reason) when I am growing, when I'm challenged, when I'm pushed. I don't know what resistance you're finding in yourself, your work, or your relationships, but when I remind myself to take friction as an opportunity to sand off rough edges it seems to help me lean in, opposed to digging in my heels. And sometimes I also have to remind myself that a life where everything goes smoothly every single day sounds a little boring. And what should our lives be, if not the most amusing progression and nod to the perseverance of the human spirit?